I’ve been dealing with a drinking problem for years. It started off as social drinking, but over time, it’s become a crutch. I drink to cope with stress, with loneliness, with everything. It’s affecting my health, my job, and my relationships.
I work in IT, a demanding job with long hours and high stress. The drinking started as a way to unwind after work, but it’s gotten out of hand. I’m drinking every night, sometimes during the day, and it’s impacting my performance at work. I’m making mistakes, missing deadlines, and my boss has noticed. I’m worried about losing my job, but I can’t seem to stop.
My health is suffering too. I’ve gained weight, my blood pressure is through the roof, and I’m always tired. I know I’m damaging my liver, but the cravings are strong. The hangovers are brutal, but they don’t stop me from reaching for another drink. It’s a vicious cycle, and I don’t know how to break free.
My relationships are falling apart. My wife is fed up with my drinking, and we’ve had countless arguments about it. She’s threatened to leave me, and I can’t blame her. I’m not the man she married, and I don’t know how to fix it. My kids are too young to understand, but they know something’s wrong. It breaks my heart to see the disappointment in their eyes.
I’ve tried to quit more times than I can count. I’ve been to AA meetings, tried rehab, but nothing sticks. The temptation is always there, lurking in the background. I’ll go a few days without drinking, think I’m in control, and then something triggers me, and I’m back to square one. It’s demoralizing and exhausting.
I’ve thought about ending it all, just to stop the pain, but I can’t do that to my family. They deserve better, and I want to be better for them. But the road to recovery feels impossible. I’m stuck in this dark place, and I don’t see a way out.
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